More then 7 years ago, I was pregnant with Alivia. I was naive in believing that my birth plan would go perfectly. Instead it went the exact opposite of what Ben and I were hoping for. We had written a birth plan for an un-medicated, natural birth and instead my birth story with Alivia involves a c-section. (Alivia's Birth Story). Fast forward to the births of my boys where I was able to have a vbac with epidural with Nolan (Nolan's Birth Story and Nolan's Birth Story Part 2) and natural vbac with Graysen (Graysen's Birth Story- Doula Perspective and Graysen's Birth Story- My Emotions) and I was elated. I have been able to work through my feeling around Alivia's birth. I needed to have all the labor and births I have had to get where I am today. Baby Spiers #4 is breech and I am sitting at 2 days shy of 37 weeks. My emotions have been pretty stable for the most part since finding out the breech status at 30 weeks. I have been praying mostly that I am content in HOWEVER I deliver this baby. Praying for peace of mind knowing that a c-section is a very high possibility at this point. In the last few months, I have been thrown into a few different situations that have tested my trust in the Lord and have allowed me the opportunity to let go of the control I want to cling onto. Ultimately, I have no control over if this baby is going to flip or not but it feels nice to think that I do. Letting go of thinking I have control and giving that part to God has been freeing and allowed me not to stress about how this baby is going to be delivered. I would love to have this baby naturally, that is my heart's desire, but in the end if I have a c-section I know that I will be ok. I know I will handle it better than how I handled my emotions with Alivia because I have changed my expectations not to what I want but to trusting in God's plan for me.
With saying that, Ben and I have decided to try a version next week to see if manually turning the baby will be just what the baby needs to flip to head down. If the version doesn't work at 38 weeks, I have the opportunity to try again at 39 weeks with an epidural. If it works my provider will induce me and if it doesn't work, I will head to the operating room for a c-section. I am comfortable with this plan. I feel that if the version(s) doesn't work that there is a reason for the baby being breech and the Lord is protecting our baby knowing that a c-section is the best route.
Here is how I am preparing for birth:
- Trusting in God's plan for me and Baby Spiers #4
- Reading Bible Verses about strength, trust, peace, plans
- Brousing websites such as Birth Without Fear and Cord Mama and reading birth stories
- Reading Articles such as 3 Truths about C-Section Mamas and Dear C-Section Mamas
- Allowing my support team to offer their encouragement
- Listening to midwifes knowledge and confidence in my situation
32 Weeks with a freshly bathed and sweet Graysen
35 Weeks
36 Weeks (decided the bathroom needed a cleaning after this picture :))
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